halfway through!

So I have two down, two to go. I think the two exams were pretty fair. That doesn't mean I did well on them. On Civ Pro I think I knew what I was talking about and that's the class that I know the best. So I think the best I can hope for is a B+ (knowing my section). But yesterday I had Crim. CRIM. Oh Crim. After the test I was so happy, but only because I knew I never had to be in that class again or deal with my conceited Prof's ugly mug. I thought the actual law was interesting. The problem was he never taught it. I basically spent every waking hour from Thanksgiving until yesterday on crim. By the end I thought I at least had a good working knowledge of the little that we did discuss in class. Then the exam happened. I was the hardest exam I've ever taken in my life. I have no idea what I wrote. So now it's just a race to the bottom. I figure if I can do better than at least 10 people in my section I can get a B. At best. Because that exam was HORRIBLE. I'm going to try and not think about it because I've made peace with getting a 3.0 gpa, but I'm just worried I'll be one of the few Cs this semester. I guess this puts a lot of pressure on me for next semester to bring my gpa up to a 3.2/3.3, 'cause it seems like that's the gpa where you can actually get a few offers.

Oh well. I just hope the firms I work for during 1L summer even ask me back after getting my first year grades!! I sent out four letters and got three interviews...so I'm hoping for a job before January. le sigh.

BUT (and I need to say this so I can come back and read it when I get my grades back in January) I'm still VERY VERY glad I've gone to law school. I've learned so much and as long as I pass I'm getting closer to my goal of becoming a lawyer. I won't come out with accolades galore, but at least I'll finally have my J.D. and I'll be able to provide for my family. Most of all, I'm glad I matriculated at my school because although the curve is so tight (because of our small sections) the congeniality of my class really makes up for it.

Ok, now it's time for Ks. Good luck everyone!

Twas the night before finals...

So it's finally here. Exams start tomorrow. The most important exams of my life. ha. I'm almost kidding. I think I'm in a good place. I mean, I don't think i'm going to get any stellar grades but I think I have a good attitude. I didn't spend my last day frantically studying in the library. I've talked through a couple of the main themes of the class with friends, but mainly I just hit the gym and am going to cook dinner with the boyfriend before turning in early. I feel like I know as much as I could possibly know by this point so any studying today would only serve to confuse me. Half of my section swarmed my TA today and I just knew I couldn't bear to be a part of it -- I know it would just make me feel worse. So, I'm going into my first law school final at least feelings somewhat confident. It may be unjustified confidence, but I think that it'll let me focus on the exam.

But! After noon tomorrow I'll have 2.5 days to study for Crim (a.k.a. the bane of my existence). I know absolutely NOTHING about crim. The only things I know are the things I taught to myself using the E&E. Sadly my Prof is old-school socratic and I was absolutely terrified of him. Last year he gave several Cs (more than normal at this school, I guess). So i'm hoping that means I can at least pull off a B- in that class. Normally that grade would terrify me, but at this point it's just damage control. Sigh. but that's only after tomorrow. For now I need to focus on the present exam and just do my best. I've never studied so hard in my life, and I know that I'm not going to be the best in my section. But, I think I'll be good enough to at least get the median in some classes. And I've made peace with that.

Anyway, good luck to you all who are starting (or who have already started) final exams. Only two more weeks left for me!

P.S. Even Cs get JDs. yay!